Every night before I head to bed, I do the same ritual: I make the rounds and lock all the doors and lock our vehicles.
No big deal, right?

But here’s the catch—once I’ve finally settled in, ten (okay, maybe twenty) minutes later, I start wondering… Did I really lock everything?

Why? Seriously, why?

It’s not like I’ve always been this way. Back when I traveled for work, I stayed in hundreds of hotels and never once double-checked the door. Never. Not one jiggle of the handle. Not one extra honk of the horn to make sure its locked.

And it’s not like we live in a bad neighborhood either.

So here I am, asking the question: Am I a psychopath?

Or maybe this is… normal?
Do other people out there get up and re-check the doors and lock their cars multiple times like some kind of forgetful security guard?

I knew a guy in college who would lock his dorm room, walk halfway to class, then turn around just to make sure it was locked. Pretty sure he had OCD.

OCD… do I have that?
Because anyone who’s met me knows I’m not exactly the poster child for cleanliness. (There’s dust on my dust.) So, wait—are there different kinds of OCD?

And what happens if I don’t get up to re-check the already locked doors and cars? Will I sleep? Honestly, I don’t know.

I realize I’m throwing a lot of questions out here, but that’s just how my ADHD brain works: Why am I like this, and how do I make it stop before my Apple Watch thinks I’m doing midnight cardio?

-Matt Webb